The Ugly Cry

Lately, I've been doing a lot of this:

You ladies know what I'm talking about. You know, the cry that makes you look super irresistible to your hubs coupled with the same spastic breathing your toddler makes when they're throwing a fit. After a good long cry I do this:

There's been a lot going on. Don't worry, Josh and I are fine. He's seriously Superman. I love him because he is so patient with my super sexiness and even sexier emotional eating. Over the past year we've noticed our sweet boy hasn't been reaching his developmental milestones, so he will need to have therapy for the things he's delayed in. Maybe its not a big deal, but any mom (unless their monsters) wants their children to succeed and to have a happy life. Josh has been our hero and I'm really so thankful for him when I feel like I'm losing it. I will keep you updated but for now let me tell you a funny story. Yesterday, I was at Sam's Club with both my kids. Gavin is in the cart and Devan hates being imprisoned so she's a little ways ahead of our cart. I'm talking like 2 feet away. My sister calls me and I'm talking to her while keeping an eye on Dora the Explorer (Devan). I'm already a ticking time bomb because of what's going (read above) and this lady yells at me..no exaggeration yells at me "You should pay more attention to that little girl and less to your phone!" Ok, one thing you should know about me, I may look like a hefty, mean, Mexican girl, but I'm a total weenie when it comes to confrontation. I will cry on the spot. I have no idea what it was, but I tell this lady in the inner ghetto I knew I always had "You need to mind your business!" I felt bad at first but I got over it really quick. Maybe I handled it wrong, but it felt really good to tell someone just how I felt. I decided I'm going to be mean more often. Just kidding, but seriously, I realized with everything we have going on I need to be more assertive. I've always been really nice and passive, but I found something about myself and I liked it. Sue me.

Ringing in 2012

Are these not the cutest kids you have ever seen?

Well its a new year! I think we as a family have been waiting for this year. The end of this year Josh will finally be done with nursing school. Our celebration is short will be for a little bit, because we start the really hard stuff. We start looking at graduate schools for CRNA school, which will mostly be east coast. Have any of you been east coast? I lived in North Carolina for 3 months and I was so confused, even though we're in the same country its a total culture shock! The humidity, the people, and most of all their super gross bugs. My sister called the cockroaches water beetles. If those are water beetles, they are the biggest beetles I have ever seen! Anyway, we will follow my husband wherever he goes.
This year is a big year for me too, I am back to school! I have been bouncing back and forth between teaching and nursing and after much debate and deep thought I decided I needed to finish my nursing. Call me crazy but I believe that I can juggle home life and school life. I'm fortunate enough that I get to stay at home with my awesome kiddos and I'm so glad that we have modern technology that allows me to do some courses online.
Devan and Gavin are HUGE! Can you believe they are 1 and 2? Where did my babies go? Devan is a sassy chatterbox! She is definitely the perfect mixture of spicy and sweet! Gav Bear is a momma's boy through and through. He's not talking yet or walking but we're getting there. He has endless expressions that keep us laughing. Seriously though I must have had my eyes closed too long. I'm getting that itch! I see prego bellies and sweet smelling babies. Devan falls in love with every baby that she sees always wanting to touch them and kiss them and tell them how cute they are. I keep telling myself that my reward will be when Josh is finished with graduate school (in like 5 years) I will be able to have another one. I'm going to be honest I think we're done after 3. I love and admire all those women that have 3 or more children you are my heroes! It truly takes some special woman to be able to do that! Anyway, cheers to 2012! May you all be safe and scratch off all your goals this year!